In a frank and honest interview with VH1 for their Behind The Music series, Nicole Scherzinger revealed she suffered from bulimia whilst during her days as a member in the Pussycat Dolls.
The singer opened up about her feelings, explaining she felt ‘alone’ despite that she was in a group: “I just hated myself. I really was so disgusted with myself and so embarrassed. I felt so alone. I was in a group, and I never felt so alone in my life.”
Nicole went on to confess that she would end up with blisters and scars on her hands and would try to cover them from the girls, even though they may have caught on what she was doing to herself.
“Every time I had a second to be alone, I was doing something to myself. You get, like, blisters on your hands or scars on your hands, and I’d try to hide those. I think the girls could tell.”
She continued describing her disorder as ‘embarrassing’ and didn’t want her family to know in case it would ‘break their heart’.
“It’s embarrassing. I never spoke about it. Like I said, I never want to play a victim, and I never wanted my family to hear about things from me because I think it would break their heart, you know.
“I guess it was like my addiction, right? I never did drugs, but kinda doing things to myself was my addiction. It’s like when I got off stage, I was on this high, and I’d come back to my room and I’d be alone, so I would just do things. My bulimia was my addiction; hurting myself was my addiction.”
The 34 – year – old who can be seen to be upset in a 30 second clip for the upcoming programme moved on from the matter. Nicole concluded that her passion for music saved her: “The music is what saved me. It’s the only thing that I can trust.”
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